Keon!

The other night gravity took it's toll on me and I started floating yet again. Good thing an angel flew by.

Hey kid, you're fucking adorable. Thanks for guiding me back to earth.

Oh, and your mom's really pretty. Di ba Niel?

"Picture!" *tilts head*



I want my own Keon.

Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda

Q: Do you regret anything that you may have done in the past?
A: I don't regret anything because whatever happened in the past made me who I am today.


* * * * *


Tanginang yan. Yuck! How I wish I'd be able to have the same beauty queen answer when asked about that topic. Truth be told, I'm a pathetic loser who regrets a lot of things that happened (or didn't) in my life. Saying words I should and/or shouldn't have said, doing things I should and/or shouldn't have done (or tried at the very least), opportunities I passed up, etc.


Insert possible contradictions here.


Yeah maybe, but still I know I could've done better, or at least I tried, or at least I'm not going to be trapped in asking what ifs ad infinitum.


Wishing for lesser regrets.

And world peas. World piss. World peace.

What's The Word?

I wish linguists or heck, even people from Urban Dictionary would one day come up with a word that would describe that certain feeling wherein you're not happy nor sad, you're spacing out and just staring at one specific spot but not really thinking about anything, you feel like you're supposed to do something but can't quite figure out what, uh, something like that.

Or maybe they already have, I just haven't heard about it yet.

Yea, I really wish they do so when someone asks you how you are you'd just say, "oh I'm (insert appropriate word here)". That way you'll be spared from giving a long explanation which will eventually end up further confusing the person who asked.

Who Wants To Drink?

It's bad enough that I won't be able to exercise my right tomorrow, I just remembered I also won't be able to drink.

I have stash in my room for the nights when counting sheeps just won't cut it. Right people [who have been to my room]? Lemme hear you say ho!

But...

This is a "fuck-you-world / I'm invisible" moment. I just want to buy booze, smoke emo cigs, sit on the grass and think. Or, just pick a spot and stare. Well, with some luck, I'd also be able to see nice asses kicking balls *grins*. I can't do that inside my room now can I?

Gah. I badly want to drink. Fuck the liquor ban. Tsk.



Hmmm... I'll be drinking as soon as the ban's lifted. Wanna come with?

So... What Now?

I hate to say this but it kinda feels good to seclude myself from the world for a while (not having credits to text back, no phone calls, etc) and just bum around especially on times like these when I'm expecting to be grilled and forced to answer questions from different people ad nauseam.

Thanks for the concern. Sorry for what I've done. Can't explain why, but trust me. I had the whole week to think it through. And I did. And I did the right thing. I think.

I hope.



CONGRATULATIONS TO THE GRADUATES!



So....


what now?

Para Kay Irah

Salamat para sa lahat ng mga ginawa mo para sa kaibigan ko.

Sayang lang at hindi tayo binigyan ng pagkakataong magkakilala. Sayang at nabuhay ka lang sa imahinasyon ko, sa mga kwento, tulad nila Ricky, Anjo at Billy.

Baka kung nagkataon ay magiging maikli lang ang panahon ng pagsasamahan natin, at pag nawala ka, baka mamatay lang ako sa lungkot at panghihinayang. Tulad ng nangyayari ngayon sa mga naiwan mo.


Rest well pare. Magkikita din tayo.

Patawad Kung Sakali

Baka makagawa ako ng isang bagay na ipinayo kong wag gawin ng ilan sa aking mga kaibigan.


Di pa naman huli. Tignan natin. Pero kung sakali...


Patawad.

The Team

Why can't we all be together again?

I was playing with Miguel. He even told me stories about their HK Disneyland trip. I swear until now I can even feel how heavy he was when I carried him.


Everything felt so real.


I miss the team. I miss the kids.